Rainbow Elder speaks

“I started going to Rainbow Gathering when somebody said let's go see an eclipse. At the time, I was living in LA in a commune that was not Rainbow related. So we hit the road and everywhere we went, we stayed in Rainbow houses because there were urban and rural communes on either side of Interstate 5 from San Diego to Vancouver, and you wouldn’t travel more than a day without finding a communal Rainbow house. That was my first experience before I even got to a gathering.  I saw the eclipse, and it turned out to be a bunch of Rainbows at Stonehenge on the Columbia River Gorge. There, every psychedelic known to man was being shared, and somebody that I picked up hitchhiking said, You've got to come to this gathering. It's done by the people, for the people. It's living theater. It's participatory democracy, and you can do anything you want as long as you're not hurting anyone; you can mobilize crowds of people to do anything they're interested in doing. There are songs. There's dance. There's storytelling. You've got to come!

And so that was in 1979, and I went. Yeah, it was a remarkable experience, but the next year I said, I'm not going again. Well, I found out that everybody says that because it's a rough camping experience, so you have to be pretty dedicated to want to attend a gathering. It's not like your average festival, where you drive and park, and there are showers.  It's not like that.

At a gathering, you park and then you walk a loooong way to the heart of the gathering to get away from the gasoline and what we call Babylon. Well, I ended up going again. It was because the whole purpose of Rainbow Gatherings is the prayer for peace on the 4th of July. This silent meditation and prayer for peace that's been happening since 1972 is a very moving experience. I was in a large Meadow with 10,000 people holding hands in a circle, in silence with nothing but Mother Earth. It's a very profound experience.

So that's the central reason for the gathering, and it's what keeps me going back. Still, there are so many other things around that that are inspiring - it's a temporary autonomous zone created by the people, there are no leaders, there's no central organization, there's no steering committee, there's no legislature, there's no bylaws, it's all done on a totally volunteer ad hoc basis by people seeing a need and stepping up to do it. That's what the gathering is about, and the reason I do it is because it's the only place I've been where you really are one of the people making it happen

So, I saw a need – I started directing parking. I had to say thousands of times - you can't drive down here, then having people cuss at me. I got really good at dealing with people doing that. I learned how to do peacekeeping, and so that was one of the major things I did when I was younger, which was just peacekeeping, and through that, I became interested in crisis intervention. I worked as a crisis counselor for 12 years as an outgrowth of my Rainbow experience. I found out I have a natural flair for it, so it kind of carried over into the rest of my life. Now that I'm older, I can't run around like I used to, so I just go there and enjoy. Now, I’m part of the history, but I'm not a historian; I'm an accidental archivist.

The life-changing thing about Rainbow Gatherings is that it encourages people to become active in their own lives. We're not aligned politically or spiritually at the Gathering, but everybody there is very interested in doing something radical in their outside lives. Working together with like-minded people, groups go off and do things. We had a lot of Rainbows go to Standing Rock when it was happening as water protectors. The Rainbow values kind of infiltrate Burning Man. The values are very much in the Oregon Country Fair. Those values are basically community, peace, and love. All the happy stuff that you would think about - mutual aid, respect for the environment, questioning the status quo, challenging the status quo, and growing intelligently.

There is a very good book called Dark Money by Gene Meyer. I've been trying to read for years. I can't get past chapter 3 because it's incredibly depressing. She researched it very well, and it's about the Right Wrings Billionhaires and Khristian conser-vatives who have been working in concert for decades to make this country in their image. Of course, you know Wright wing Khristians have one agenda, and the millionaires have another. The millionaires give the schools to the Kristians, just so that they don't get regulated in any way. One of their tools that way, way back they figured out was that if they could get people fighting among each other, that furthers their agenda because then people are not paying attention to what the RWB is doing.

So, everything from the incredible corruption of our government, the fact that lobbyists are really writing our bills for us, the fact that corporations are people, and money is speech means that corruption has been enshrined in this country. That's one of the things we're fighting, but the weapons of the RWB are dissension among the people who oppose them. We have to stop fighting among ourselves long enough to figure out how to answer this threat because it's not the Demorat’s fault and it's not Biiden's fault and it's not Obmama's fault. This has been planned for decades, this takeover by the RWB who don't want regulations, or in the case of the far Kristian wright who just want to be able to do what they're already doing in a lot of southern schools which is teaching God instead of science. I don't care if they teach God, but they can't throw science out the window. You know, separation of church and state, baby. So, it’s convoluted. It's hard to fight this particular coalition of vested interests that got that evil man elected.

But when you see people say awful, horrible things that make you mad, remember it's their intention to make you angry. That's what they're trying to do.”

Listening to Carla made me consider how Rainbow Warriors' core values of community, love, peace, and respect can be put into action. It’s a soft way to meet the hardness of the RWB. Will it work? I think it will be similar to the Rainbow Gathering in that it won’t be easy.

Cool truck

the peace movement

Watching the news leaves me blinking in disbelief. It takes real consciousness to choose the lighter path in this time of little shop of horrors.  

Every chakra is engaged, starting with the head – enlightenment or confusion, the throat –clear voice or stifled silence, the heart- love or hate, solar-plexus open creativity or rigid righteousness, and finally the root chakra – feeling safe and open to our passions or fear, insecurity, and pent-up. Maintaining a calm center and energy flowing is like swimming upstream against a waterfall. Let’s face it – we’re traumatized.

In this time of upheaval, we must remember that we are meant to be here. What we do and feel is essential. If we want peace, we must find it within ourselves. If we want harmony, we can’t fight for that; we must live it. If we want justice we must insist on it again and again. It is the ultimate challenge – how to live in chaos and not engage-enrage but heal and deal. From Jesus to Nat Chit Hung to the Black Panther, this is what every inspiring story is about.

Each one of us has to decide what’s in our hearts. Do we want revolution, resolution or retribution? Each of these paths is very different. What we hold as a vision guides our actions. Maybe there is even a third option that we haven’t even thought of yet, for we are in the Age of Aquarius; it’s not just about long hair and drugs; it’s about testing every boundary and every idea of normal. This time is characterized by extreme ideals, with the side effect of making it difficult to relate on a personal level.  Dig it, we’re there.

We are adrift into a future we cannot rely on. So, all we have is this moment. This is it. This is life. Throw ourselves onto the steps of the Wit Howse, protest, and post signs, but part of the solution is also snuggling our cat, playing with our children, swimming in a river, or also humm… chocolate and wine? Can’t undo it all. Folly has been part of the human condition since day one. Our own happiness can’t be contingent on the outside world.

At every moment we are given an opportunity to live with integrity, uphold our values and nurture our relationships. The simple moments build a life. As the end line of the movie Don’t Look Up says, 'We had everything.' We must savor our scraps of freedom as they are being thrown away with this Idiocracy.

Folly will undo itself.

Karma will be rough for those who play along.

No one is safe until we are all safe.

And since we are trapped in this show of fools, we might as well cut loose and clown around.

There must be some way out of this said the Joker to the Thief… check out All long the watchtower.

Healing the divide

The news is like ceaseless, driving rain pelting my face. Trying not to reiterate what has already been said, this blog is a digestive system rather than an echo chamber. I digest. And, at times, given a lot of bad news, digestion takes a while. I masticate and contemplate, then see what comes up. Let’s call it intuitive news digestion. Now I’m ready to hand you the sh*t.

The Orange Turd - we’ve heard enough about him. What’s more interesting is that he is an icon of a movement. The people who think he’s wonderful are the root of the issue. What does he mean to them?

Our country has a deep rift. But like a fractal pattern, perhaps each of us also has a divide within. We all have demons, but we have learned (through helpful therapy) that the things that haunt us are usually repressed desires, fears, or anger that ooze out of our control and pop up, unbidden to destroy relationships and make our lives difficult. The more we try to rid ourselves of these unsavory attributes, the more they surface. Our minds feel out of control when our anger or ticks wreak havoc until we turn toward the quality we are pushing away.

In the body of America, there is an unmet need, a repressed expression. We are demonizing the other half of ourselves. We cannot divorce ourselves or kill ourselves, so we must face our demon-half of the population, for we demonize each other. Not only must we face our other half, but we must love, hold, and listen to our demons with compassion to try to understand. Only then do we see the ferocious evil melt into a child-like, unmet need.

What is the need for the other half of America?

Well, let’s look at their icon. He is the obvious racist, sexist, capitalist pig that is so very repulsive to science-based, inclusive liberals. But let’s reduce the Orange Turd to a feeling. Well, he shoots from the hip. He’s impulsive. Deeper still, he is illogical. He speaks purely to emotions with no facts or real content.

Here is the first clue to understanding.

Then there are those signs outside our liberal doors or yards that say- We believe - water is life, love is free, no person is illegal, and science is real- it seems almost incomprehensible that we need to say any of this. It’s so obvious. But taking out the sexism and racism (not that these aren’t important), we are left with the part about science. We proclaim its reality as if cell phones, computers, and cars aren’t enough proof.

Maybe another clue.

Confucius maintained that one must liken oneself to oneself. We cannot show compassion to others unless we develop compassion for ourselves. We are all a little bit crazy. Confucius also maintained that it was imperative to chant, do rituals, recite poetry and be moved by music to truly change at a deep level. This is what is offered in the churches of America: feeling, music, belonging, faith, and resurrection. Something that Science, and education doesn’t provide

Psychological clue #3.

See my blog post with pictures of Jesus holding guns. It seemed so bizarre. But when I put on my phycologist thinking cap and see it as an image that has meaning, it becomes less offensive and more of an interesting symbol. Religion is defending itself. It feels endangered and threatened to the point that it needs violence to survive.

Clue #4.

Putting these clues together, perhaps we can hypothesize that the emotional, illogical, spiritual side of America (the religious right) has risen as a repressed monster because it has been impoverished and out of favor with our rational, logical, scientific paradigm of America.

There has been a significant decline in Christianity in America, about 16%. Of the 62% of the US Christian population, 40% identify as Protestant and 19% as Catholic. Perhaps this is the reason why the Catholic Church chose an American Pope.

You can see the mosaic of clues pointing to the root of the divide. Let us put facts aside and journey to the mythical, magical side where we dream and imagine. This is what we need to learn from our counterparts; even though it feels like Christianity is an outmoded religion that doesn’t allow us to move forward, yet it holds the roots of ancient myths, community, and spirit. Scientific, capitalist America needs this, for science on its own is out of moral and spiritual control and will destroy us just as much as non-critical thinking, faith-based political force that we have now.

A quote from the book, A Short History of Myth –

 “Because the novelist and the artist operate at the same level of consciousness as myth makers, they naturally resort to the same themes. Joseph Conrad's Heart of Darkness can be seen as a heroic quest and initiation that has gone wrong. Published in 1902, just before the West began its great disillusion, the novel describes the sojourn of the ultimate civilized Mr. Kratz deep in the African jungle. In traditional mythology, the hero left the serenity of the social world behind. He often had to descend into the depths of the earth, where he would meet an unsuspected effect on himself. The experience of isolation and deprivation could result in a psychological breakdown, which led to a vital new insight. If he succeeded, the hero returned to his people with something new and precious. In Conrad's novel, the labyrinthine recalls the subterranean tunnels through which the initiates crawled back into the womb of the Earth and the underworld of the primeval jungle. Kurtz does indeed look into the darkness of his heart but remains stuck in his resignation and dies spiritually. He becomes a shaman manique, with no respect but only contempt for the African community that he abuses.”

“A mythological hero learns that, if he dies to himself, he would be reborn in new life, but Kurtz is caught in the toils of a sterile egotism, and when he finally reappears in the novel, he has the obscenity of an inanimate corpse, obsessed with his own fame. Kurtz seeks not heroism but only barren celebrity. He cannot make a heroic affirmation of life: his dying words are – “The horror, the horror!”. Conrad, a true prophet, had already looked at the triviality, selfishness, greed, nihilism, and despair of the 20th century.”

“In 1922, T.S. Eliot depicted the spiritual disintegration of Western culture in his landmark poem The Wasteland. In this myth of the Holy Grail, the wasteland is a place where people live inauthentic lives, blindly following the norms of their society without the conviction that comes from deeper understanding. How is it possible to put down creative roots in this stony rubbish of modernity where people have lost touch with the mythical underpinnings of their culture? Instead of understanding the inner coherence of their tradition, they know only heaps of broken images. Elliot lays bare the sterility of contemporary life by means of poignant, lapidary allusions to the mythology of the past- to European, Sanskrit, Buddhist, biblical, Greek, and Roman myths. It's alienation, ennui, nihilism, superstition, egotism, and despair as he confronts the imminent demise of Western Civilization. When we have pieced (religions) together and recognize their common core, we can reclaim the wasteland in which we live.”

At the end of the Short History of Myth (which I hope some of you read – it is truly short), Armstrong proclaims that humans have always been mythmakers and challenges us to deepen ourselves by integrating living myths back into our lives.

What myth do we hold as true enough that we can let go of our critical minds and just go with the symbolic dream? There are so many breakthroughs in the phycology-therapy sphere that there are signs of real transformational understanding. Science, as well, is expanding into the surreal. So much has come out of the quantum small to the vastness of deep space-time. How can we not see God? There it is - not a God-man, nor a Goddess-woman, yet infinite creations held by endless space. It's magical, mysterious, and powerful.

Maybe our next myth might be a fusion of Jesus and science. Jesus, the transgender, intuitive explorer of space-time, with Mary Mangelin, a genius physicist, explores space in their quantum ship shaped like a cross. They sacrifice themselves to a black hole and come out in a parallel universe, learning that all is destroyed in order to be created again – the ultimate recycling symbol. Infinity is realized. They are resurrected in this parallel universe, bringing back the divine wisdom, logos, to Mother Earth. The Father's wisdom rejoins the emotional Mother Earth, the male and female unite within Jesus, and the repressed feminine becomes empowered through Mary. In a fractal universe, as below, so above, so inside, so outside. Here, within us, is where balance is restored.

Scientific minds integrate with our moral mythical minds, and we can see both truths.

Here is a stab at a space-Jesus myth, but it is not enough. The myth needs music, theater, art, holidays and community to bring it to life. Like so many shifts in religions, the new overlays on the well-trodden path of the old.

Spirituality needs to hold science accountable to life, and science should hold spirituality accountable to open-mindedness. This is the balance we need to survive.

Perhaps this gives us something else to chew on besides grinding our teeth in anger and frustration through the pelting rain of nonsensical atrocities. We protest and put a sign on our front lawns, but we also need to look for solutions within our own lives. How are we divided within ourselves? Are we whole? What spiritual language do we speak, and can we use this to decipher what our religious counterparts are saying?

No matter what happens, even if it all looks bad, it comes down to what is in our minds and relationships. How do we want to spend these precious moments of life? Hate and worry erode our soul. There’s more than one dimension to work on.

Cut loose, dream deeply, imagine unity, and untangle our feelings by befriending our pain. Sorting out what the other half of Americans are about is beyond what the crazy T-rex does. He’s a patsy to the dying oil industry (even as the Earth’s ecosystems collapse), a stubborn patriarch (which I am losing hope that we will ever get beyond), and an egomaniac (endemic of our culture). Our conservative family and friends will still be here long after he is gone. We can only change ourselves and make the heaven we hope for by developing our inner world for who has ever had the outer world be perfect? Well-being is our affair. Developing compassion and understanding for our conservative population is what will move us closer to a calmer center and a cohesive America. This is not easy. Hate and division are much easier but more toxic and will lead us to destruction.

This is a call for each of us to be the hero in the journey to wholeness.  

History Repeats

The Republican Party dominated the early 1900s politics. Their laissez-faire hands-off approach to economics was based on limited government, free trade, tax cuts, reduced government spending, privatization, and no social service programs. It was all about personal responsibility, and the overarching ideal was Darwin’s theory of survival of the fittest. If you were poor or of ill health, that was your problem. There was no social security, disability, or social services. Life was bleak if you were poor. Muckrakers, investigative journalists, and photographers brought awareness of the suffering of the masses. The Robber Barons, Rockefeller, Carnegie, and Vanderbilt, to name a few, were prominent men who amassed immense wealth by creating monopolies of ownership and treated their workers like slaves. Anyone who criticized them was fired, and some were put in jail.

The economy crashed. Like the game Monopoly, there are only a few winners, and everyone else loses. Life just isn’t fun when a few have all the money and everyone else is poor. When Franklin D. Roosevelt, FDR, swept most states with his New Deal, he reversed that trend, investing heavily in social services and making a government that regulated the economy. The Dust Bowl exacerbated the economic collapse, and the new Democratic government subsidized farms to leave their fields fallow to have the land rest.

His New Deal was so popular he was elected for four terms. The Republicans hated him and have wanted to dismantle Social Security, social services, farm subsidies and government oversight ever since.  

It’s been a100 years. We have forgotten. So, history repeats itself. Now with a more cynical edge. The stakes are higher. If you are caught protesting, the government can now freeze your assets, deport you, or put you in a jail – a secret jail constructed in Gautama.  This is a nasty government. It’s no longer about just not taxing the rich, it’s about dismantling the safeguards that protect people’s rights.

FDR was elected by 57% of the people. 39% were for Hoover. 39% is about the same as today. These are the m*aga, the capitalist-christian idealist who believe in no monitoring or control by the government, no gun regulation, and religion taught in schools. Basically - government, don’t tell us what to do! The idea is that life is so much better when the government stays out of the way and people do whatever they want.  Well, just check out history to see how that went.

Are we doomed to go through this cycle every 100 years? Do the stakes get higher and higher, where eventually, we end up living in the story Star Wars, blowing up planets?  I’m getting tired of the ultimate evil power taking over. Isn’t there another storyline? It seems like humanity is just not imaginative enough to consider another way. We will keep going around and around with this same projection. And indeed, our imaginations form reality. We have invested so much of our fantasies into doomsday scenarios that now we are creating our worst fears.

It may be that we must repeat this cycle- the capitalist taking over the socialist society, things degrade because the economy can’t thrive in an unstable society, then social stability is reclaimed, democracy is made better, money flows, greed grows, then the capitalist takes over again.  The only way to step out of this circular drama is for people to really understand history and the cost of this repeating pattern, then vow not to repeat it. Perhaps it needs to be so bad that it is burned into people’s minds that it’s a terrible idea to let the wealthy few control a government. But history has shown how bad it can be, and yet here we are again. History is either not being taught, or we don’t understand how the events of the past relate to today.

If the public applied knowledge of history, they may realize it’s not the government that is the problem—it’s the people who run it. Only then might we stop attacking our own systems like an auto-immune disease and start being a healthy society. Until then, we may be stuck on a merry go round of forgetfulness.

Dr. Seuss taught me how to be a good human

I read so much Suess

My brain talks in rhythms  

It takes a bit to get used to

I can say whatever do-dissimes

 Which is a made-up word

Of course, I know

But in Mr. Suess's world

Everything is a go

This leader we have now

Or what-ever he thinks he is

Can get out of hand

With his palm full of schiz

 He’s tired, he says

Of the simple democracy

So he creates some havoc

Some Ooblick and controversy

 The country is divided

With the butter side up and butter side down

Fighting for what?

A Christ? a crazy? A capitalist clown?

 He wants to take countries

For his private retreats

Even though there are people

There in their homes and streets.

 The star belly Sneetches

With their stars upon their visas

Have the dumb and complacent

Letting them do whatever they pleases.

 Did we not learn from Suess

On how not to be a Zax?

Who are stubborn as heck

And don’t listen to facts

 Or how to avoid a war

With our buttery bread

It’s not about butter

It’s about what’s in your head

We’ve read them all

I do believe

Or maybe it’s just been

the lefties and me

 All the rest of the nation

Have only listened to

 The ranting Rush Limbaugh

And the deceptive Fox news

We need more Dr Seuss books

in every school, home and hollow

To read to our nation’s children

So we’d know better who to follow

Dr Seuss Rap-

simple yet fun